I have an egoistic patient who definitely has subject egoistic and object egoistic trends. She can externalize her own feelings so that "an enemy" else is represented as "dirty, uncultured, and lazy" while she can affirm that she is clean and cultured. However, she does recognize the self-reproach of laziness and it seems to be shared between a reproach that she should be reading more books to perfect her cultural refinement and also in relation to do more comprehensive work at her job and in relation to career and academic ambitions.
Analyzing her "laziness," it shows up in the normal way. There is procrastination that involves the phantasy that if she had more time to work she could have made something perfect.
The reproach for laziness also involves a machine-like existence of making an optimal use of her time and dividing up the day in a way in which there is no time for relaxation, "fun", or personal life in general. The only thing left is the impersonal machine.
The relation to time that features heavily in this, the absence of reference to social hierarchy to locate the perfection points, and her discomfort to be around people in general point to the volar stage.
In the volar stage the castration complex is a rebellion against time in wishes to fly, control things with one's mind, etc. that don't submit to being measured against time. This makes the likely candidate the volar trito in which time is internalized. The garden of Eden myth in which being banished amounts to a life of toil seems related here.
Also there has been associations to the tin man from Wizard of Oz which references chopping down trees which I related to the volar trito in an earlier post. There is also an association to a Charlie Chaplin movie in which Chaplin's boss is "trapped, miserable, and hungry" and being "consumed" by the gears inside the factory.
There are many other things going on, and these associations also reference a personal relationship and the altruistic pole of her personality.
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